The time of caring for my sick husband and saying goodbye was a winter season in my life. Looking back, I remember fighting fear, fatigue, and frustration, but stronger yet is the memory of God’s faithfulness as I waited for the light of Spring in this dark time. Through his grace, he impressed on me three truths.
First, he revealed to me his tender love. I sought the Lord with my whole heart, believing he is good and faithful. I read Psalms daily and the Lord gave me peace as he revealed who he is (Psalm 18:1-2). He showed me his love through family, friends, and “treasures in darkness:”
“I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name.” Isaiah 45:30
One treasure I cherish are two wrens coming to my back door to sing when I went outside—light in darkness.
The second truth was that I need to be content in this season (Phil. 4:11). I wrote down blessings every day and learned the power of praise to overcome depression as I waited for Spring.The next truth the Lord impressed on me was that he is a God of hope. He had a new season of light and fruitfulness for me (Isaiah 43:18-19).
This season of darkness has passed. Even as tree roots grow in the winter as they look for nutrients and water, so I have grown. I know my loving Lord better and have found him faithful. He is bringing good from this as I have opportunities to encourage and comfort others (2 Cor. 1:4). At times it can be lonely, but Jesus, my new husband, will never leave me.
As we wait in this dark world for the light of his coming, “the blessed hope,” (Titus 2:13), we can trust our loving, faithful God to walk beside us and carry us through (Ps. 33:20-21).